As we continue to unpack, I dread the fact that we still have LOTS of boxes in our garage. On top of all those boxes, we have LOTS MORE boxes in storage.
It’s stuff. Literally just stuff. Holiday decorations. Cherished baby items and favorite outfits from when our sweet peas were little. Toys. And papers. And old artwork. All of it reminding me that we have too much, I keep too much. I have so much to release. Especially: books!!!
As I was moving things around today to clear some space in the garage, I found a laundry basket full of books…and I have to face the fact that there is literally no more shelf space for them. (I cannot buy another bookcase!! Where would I put it?!?!)
We are bursting at the seams in our home – I don’t want to bring anything else inside. Right now, everything has a spot. Nothing is piled up or so full that I can’t easily put it away in the right place…but there are still boxes.
So now I have to decide: am I going to let things go? Or am I going to insist on holding on?
It almost feels like a metaphor for our children. As we are in the midst of the 64-day span in which we celebrate the birthdays of our 3 younger sweet peas, I am struck by the fact that they are *really* all growing up. Our “baby” is turning five this year…she is in kindergarten!! We are only six years away from our oldest going off to college…and she is making noises about wanting to try out for a performing arts school next year. I hear a rustle in our little nest…
They are all stretching their wings and getting ready to fly. It makes me take inventory of what we are teaching them…will they be equipped? Will they have the confidence to spread their wings? Will they know how to do critical thinking? Will they have the courage to do what is right instead of doing that which is most convenient or gratifying? Sometimes those things intersect; and when they don’t, will they be able to live with their choices?
So here I sit…wondering. Wondering what will become of the pile of boxes. Wondering how our sweet peas will grow. I hope and pray that they will grow and mature in their faith and self-esteem, knowing that they are loved.
Letting go…holding on…the art of living a meaningful life. The inspiration continues to choose and lead with love. My filter is the question, “Am I living love right now?” If I am, we go onwards. If I am not, it’s time to adjust an attitude, a voice, a tone…and live with love, nurture with love, grow with love; trusting that the end result is going to be greater than I can imagine.